By Brittany Flurry
I sit here frantic and unfocused as I write this- I forgot about it. (Editor's note: Elena forgot to remind Brittany to write it. Brittany is too hard on herself. Brittany is wonderful.) Much like many of the bulleted notes that lurk on my far from finished to do list- I overloaded myself again and I’m falling behind. The irony of how frazzled I am while writing to promote a film called “And Breathe” is not lost on me. I think about all my carefully planned and finally attained self-care regimens that have gone out the window. The old habits and coping mechanisms that have crept back in since stress took over yet again. The overwhelmed feeling sitting on my chest like the elephant in the room I’ve been avoiding for months… and I want to cry. I want to fall to pieces. I want to shake a finger at myself for ending up back here after working so hard to be healthy and happy. But instead I choose to take a step back. I choose kindness. Excuse me while I breathe for a moment.
But while I’m up there… why do I feel like something is missing even when I’m surrounded by people I love working on some of the most amazing projects I’ve done in my life/career to date? Because I’m missing it. I’m swept up in it without taking care of myself first. My well is running dry because I have not been refilling it. I’m a shell moving through these amazing things wondering why it doesn’t mean more. And it’s because the real me isn’t here right now. And getting back to me starts in the simplest of ways- stopping to take a breath.
This movie is a reminder. A loving tap on the shoulder to slow down. To be where you really are. To sit in whatever it is for a moment. And breathe.
Then choose your next thought and move forward.
Tomorrow at 2pm we launch a crowdfunding campaign for this film. Another old thought pattern is my dread of asking for help. Which is funny, considering how much I give (and the joy in which I give). Asking others to help scares me shitless. But I let it go now. Because I need this film. You need this film. Your best friend, your neighbor, your senator, your bus driver... everyone needs this film. Join us in making this beautiful film which I hope will have a lasting impact on those who view it, and that by getting closer to the real versions of ourselves- we can make this world a bit brighter each day.
A short film by Molly McKee